There are three biggish things looming ahead of me with regard to this pregnancy that make me feel really unprepared:
1. We don't have a vehicle yet that will fit our new family of 8
2. We haven't settled on names yet
3. I haven't figured out yet what to do about my doula's unavailability
I'm still working on just trusting God to sort it out and to provide what we need when we need it. I struggle with knowing what my own involvement should entail, but overall, I realize that I can trust Him!
Number 3 on my list is the hardest. I don't even know my own mind on this one. I really want to have that support person there whom I can trust to be my advocate in the hospital setting. If I were at a birthing center or birthing at home, this wouldn't be so much of an issue to me, but our situation is that we're doing this at the hospital... again. The cost of a doula is somewhat of an issue but the idea that I'd have to get to know someone new is more daunting to me. Part of me wants to just skip it this time, but I think I'd probably regret it. Meanwhile, time is slipping away and I've made no decision. I feel like I'm kind of cruising along in denial. Not my usual approach and I need to do something about that. I don't like making decisions by default. I'm praying for wisdom and decisiveness!
10 weeks and counting....